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damn, it's been a while [28 Jun 2006|08:49pm]
[ mood | numb ]

It's been about 2 months since I've posted.. wow.

I finally quit the collection agency.

I went on the interview for Norton's florist and it wasnt worth it.

I worked at The Greenhouse Spa in the Summit as a shampoo tech and all around slave. That was a bust.. those rich bitches would pay upwards of $200 per visit and not tip me a dime. Huh.

Now again I am at Pizza Hut, where the rich bitches still don't tip very well, but at least I get a dollar a run. The apartments around here tip pretty well.

My paternal Uncle Benny died this morning. He had brain cancer and a lung disease, but it was a blood clot that killed him. For the last 3 years he had suffered from various health problems, so at least his suffering has come to an end.

I feel so numb about it. I havent even cried. I'm sure it will hit me at the funeral.

So here I sit. Alone at home.

Mike is managing the Pizza Hut again and the big CEO guy is visiting as I type. I hope it's going okay.


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[29 Apr 2006|06:24pm]

watch it. i wish there was more of it out there. the entertainment industry isnt as bold as it used to be.
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Finally, something positive..... [13 Apr 2006|07:17pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

So, I was written up at work Monday. I haven't met 50% of my quota in 2 months. That was just the 'kickintheass' I needed to get the fuck out of this job.

Since Mikey and I have been together, he has bought me several dozens of flowers. I have come to find that I truly enjoy arranging them and I'm pretty good at it. So, Mike's mom saved me the classifieds from Sunday's paper and I stumble across an ad for Norton's florist. Today, I called the jobline and they had openings for customer service and design apprentice. I filled out the online application and Mike faxed it for me on my break around 4:15pm today. So they called me back at 5pm!! I have an interview at 9:30 am on Wednesday!! The design apprentice is a part-time gig, so I am up to get BOTH the sales and design positions!! WOW! Also, my favorite part, the guy said "Yeh, come in around 9:45 or 10, if you run a little late, it's no big deal. We're pretty relaxed around here." OMFG! How amazing is that??

I told my boss and she's actually EXCITED for me. I'm sure it's mostly because if I go, the office's monthly quota goes down, but hey, this is a positive post.

WOOHOO! I really hope everything goes well. It would be insane to actually do something I LIKE to do AND get PAID for it!

Wish me luck!

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[13 Apr 2006|10:33am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

This kicks ass.
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[29 Mar 2006|02:13pm]
[ mood | confused ]

So, it has been a pretty insane two weeks. Mikey and I joined a gym, which we needed badly. My left arm really hurts from the weight lifting. I'll be okay. My grandmother went into the hospital Friday the 24th. She had a heart attack and hadn't recovered from pneumonia that she's had since August. It's really scary when you start to feel the mortality of your loved ones. She moved into a room of her own last night, thankfully. I think they said she'll be able to go home today.

Sunday night, my sister Lesley called me while i was at Joe Muggs to tell me that my father got married the previous Wednesday (3-22-06). He has done nothing but complain about his now-wife for the past 6 months. Gold-digger and such. So needless to say i was enraged. I think i even said that mom's boyfriend could walk me down the aisle at the wedding. Well, I spoke with him on Tuesday, i think, and he told me something that my sister neglected to tell me. He paid all of his court fines and is on his way to getting his license back after it being suspended for the past 7 years. This entails court appointed alcohol and drug testing on a regular basis. My father, the man that has been an alcoholic since he was 15, is no longer allowed to drink. Wow. He has 52 mandatory meetings in AA and has to go to another session of "driving school".

So, I'm not really mad about him getting married without telling me. I guess when you look at it his way, it all made sense. He also said it is mandatory that i have a Christian wedding- "because that's how your were raised and what you believe." I guess it's inevitable that he will "find God" in AA- and I think it's a good thing. And I'm really not mad at him for talking to me like that, he's dad. I'll do things how i want and he'll just deal.

So I really didnt want to come in to work today because mom and sean are in town and staying with us. Mikey is also off work today, and it's freaking beautiful outside. But here I am. A few minutes ago, Derek, my former supervisor called me over to his desk and gave me an encouragement card that the whole office had signed. He said that I have been moping around the office and they're all here for me if i need to talk. Tears streamed down my face uncontrollably. Things are changing, and are completely different from what I thought i had established as "my life". The calm has passed, but it seems most of the change is for the better.

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[24 Mar 2006|12:48pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

So I surf the internet quite often at work. Currently I am trying to find ANYTHING to look at other than ebay. No one on my friends list is online(livejournal or myspace). I can not spend anymore money on EBAY! Now I remember why I never set up a paypal account. It's not like I've spent more than $100, but I have all that court shit coming up in NC-- it's actually Monday. I have no clue how much I am going to have to pay the freakin city of Gastonia. Damn speed traps, damn state troopers, damn ebay for being so easy and addictive. ARGH! At least today is friday.

Ok guys... give me fun websites to look at where i CAN NOT buy ANYTHING but will keep me occupied for hours. I don't have flash on this work computer and i cant download it, so old- school stuff, please. I do have java, though. I trust I will get at least 3 good suggestions. Please don't disappoint.

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[24 Mar 2006|11:12am]
[ mood | bored ]

You Are Likely a Third Born

At your darkest moments, you feel vulnerable.
At work and school, you do best when you're comparing things.
When you love someone, you tend to like to please them.

In friendship, you are loyal to one person.
Your ideal careers are: sales, police officer, newspaper reporter, inventor, poet, and animal trainer.
You will leave your mark on the world with inventions, poetry, and inspiration.
speak up!

[22 Mar 2006|07:53pm]

Which Rock Chick Are You?
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[21 Mar 2006|09:53am]
[ mood | groggy ]

1. First kiss: Robert
2. First love: real love... Mikey
3. First heartbreak: Wesley
4. First car: 1986 Buick LeSabre
5. First pet: Bo dog
6. First word: probably mama
7. First concert: new kids on the block
9. First alcoholic beverage: Boone's Farm Stawberry Hill
10. First time you stayed out all night: god, probably around 15 hanging out at waffle.
11. First best friend: Eric
12. First job: PacSun
13. First school: McAdory
12. First movie you watched in a theater: I can't remember.
13. First thing you really saved up money for: TLC cd
14. First run in with the Law: my first ticket in North Carolina, Jan '06


1. Last kiss: Mikey
2. Last person you hugged: Mikey
3. Last person you spoke to: Ralphfia
4. Last alcoholic beverage: Smirnoff Ice at Fox and Hound last night
5. Last sexual partner: Mikey
7. Last person you thought of: Ashley
8. Last school you went to: McAdory
9. Last person you said "i love u 2": Mikey
10. Last run in with the Law: my first was my last
11. Last fight you were in: i have no clue, and that's wonderful
12. Last bar/club/concert/party you went to: The Swan
13. Last person you e-mailed:a seller on ebay
14. Last thing you ate: A "Mile- High Chili" Firecracker at F&H
15. Last thing you saved up money for: Easter Dress



1. Next person you'll kiss: Mikey
2. Next movie you want to see: V for Vendetta
3. Next person you want to go out with: MIKEY!
4. Next car you want to have: quad cap Z71
5. Next time you're going out: probably tomorrow night.
6. Next time you're going to move: after Mike and I get married, maybe
7. Next thing you are going to save money for: paying off my car and the ticket from NC
8. Next time that you will drink alcohol: tomorrow night
9. Next person you are going to call: Mikey
10.Next place you'll take vacation: not sure, we'll see
11. Next thing you are going to do after filling this survey?: work
12. Next thing you are going to eat: ramen noodles
13. Next time you plan to be drunk: tomorrow
14. Next thing you are going to do outside: smoke
15. Next person you'd like to see fill this out: i don't care.

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[20 Mar 2006|10:43pm]
tired. early day tomorrow.

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[15 Mar 2006|01:00pm]
[ mood | chipper ]


My London Pictures


My myspace Profile

Sorry Steph, I know we were always "FUCK MYSPACE" but there are so many cool people on there and you know that I can't leave a profile looking all plain. You'll like it, I'll help you make one if you want!

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[11 Mar 2006|02:01pm]
[ mood | happy ]

This is the crown that I got while in gulf shores. She freakin loves it.

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[09 Mar 2006|01:25pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

it's been a few days since my last update.

the phones are down at work for the 2nd day in a row. which is wonderful, really. the bosses cant stomach sending us home, so we're getting paid to skiptrace ( research accounts to find new phone numbers and addresses ) and out "status" is controlled by the phone system, so they have no real way of keeping tabs on us. very nice.

so i've really been thinking lately about what i am going to do with my life. i really dont like being here, but i really have no clue what i enjoy doing that i can get paid for. i have a goal in mind but i need a job to establish the capital to even think about pursuing it. ::sigh::

i think about all of these people who have college degrees and who are still unhappy with their jobs, it's very discouraging. i think about all of the life experience that mikey has, and it disheartens me to think that he can make more money delivering pizzas than working for a bank. kris and i had a conversation-- well, it's been ongoing, about how in 1999-2000 we were working for $6- $6.75 per hour. Now all of a sudden, pizza hut is only paying drivers $5.50 an hour. It's 2006! dammit! Service industry managers are only being paid $9 per hour! Give me a fuckin break! WHERE IS ALL OF THE MONEY AND WHERE ARE ALL OF THE JOBS FOR SMART PEOPLE? Would corporate america prefer a smart janitor or a stupid janitor-- think about it. I really hope that the democratic party can come up with someone other than Hillary to run for president.

Damn, politics again. okay , i'm done.

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[02 Mar 2006|05:05pm]
[ mood | astounded ]

Wow, today has totally thrown me into what feels like an alternate univers or something. The weather is so beautiful and i don't mind that i am at work. Wanna know why? I got my performance review today and was blown away.


The lady that has given me the MOST hell in the past 6 months gave me a shining review and the highes raise possible.

I am shocked. PLUS, the raise is retroactive, so on top of my next paycheck, i'll get a seperate check for like $350!

Things are never quite what they seem.

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[01 Mar 2006|03:59pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

Days until Bush leaves office.

Designed by georgedorn and provided by Positronic Design.

Grab your own copy here.

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We'll see how this goes..... [28 Feb 2006|07:12pm]
[ mood | blah ]

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. I promise not to come after you with a spatula, either way.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your LJ and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you

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[28 Feb 2006|09:46am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

<td align="center"> Natalie Jacquelyn Gamble --

A brand of soylent green breakfast cereal

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

I'm so freakin tired. I cant wake up. Coffee is giving me acid reflux. Tasty!-- At least tonight will be fun. Gotta find something cheap to do, though. I need to stash some cash so i can leave this job! It's driving me crazy. I just don't want to do it anymore. Ugh..

I need to get faster with my typing. I think it's around 40-45 wpm right now. I'd like to get it up to at least 60 wpm. Temp agencies can place you somewhere better if you type hella fast. All I know is that I can not make less than $10 an hour given my present bill situation. I hope it won't be as hard to find as I'm worried it will be.

I didnt want to leave Mikey in bed this morning. It was so sweet. Oh well, we'll get to sleep in tomorrow.

Our anniversary was wonderful. We had a great conversation about the past and both learned things we hadn't told each other. We also kissed in the Waffle parking lot, again. Flash back to my first journal entry to get the whole story.

We went to Orange Beach/Gulf Shores this weekend. We also shot over to Mobile to hang out with Steph. Mega-fun. I got a spiffy tinkerbell portable coffee mug and got a big glass one for steph for her b'day. I found a princess crown for Anna at the Disney outlet for like $1.99- freakin sweet.

OK, I may as well do some work, they are still paying me to do that.
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[23 Feb 2006|01:09pm]
[ mood | pleased ]

In one year and 1 day I will have a new last name. I will become Natalie Gentry on February 24th, 2007, mine and michael's 3 year anniversary. Wow, that's really cool.

So I've taken off work tomorrow for our 2 year anniversary. Mikey is working at the hut tomorrow night, but that's okay. I need to get on the ball and make some necklaces so i can have some extra cash. There are a few books that i would really like to have.

We are going on a roadtrip this weekend. Yay! It's been a while since i've gone out of town with anyone other than mikey. I'm sure we'll all have a blast. I wish we had longer to stay down there, but you take what you can get, i guess.

It's really cool how easy it is to get through the drama when you don't really participate. If you know what to look for you can usually tell what people's intentions are.

"Hulteen, I haven't seen you in forever! Come see me!"

"How are you Ashley? What's going on?"

It's really funny. Mostly due to the fact that I DON'T CARE!! And I'm sure that confuses the hell out of most of the group. Mikey and I breeze in and out without putting any emotional stock into anything they do. I never knew it could be this easy.

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[22 Feb 2006|01:15pm]
[ mood | good ]

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space.  If the inputted data was correct Natalie has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Natalie fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Natalie has  a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Natalie is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future.  Natalie would like to leave the past behind and move on.

Natalie is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps her from success. Often, Natalie changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge. Natalie feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life.


Natalie has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.

Natalie is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Natalie is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth.  This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts.  she finds joy in anticipation and planning.  Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned.  Natalie basically feels good about herself.  She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success.  She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to.  However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach".  She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals.  A good esteem is one key to a happy life.  Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

In reference to Natalie's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Natalie slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Natalie can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.


Natalie is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Natalie is sensitive to criticism about her ideas and philosophies. She will sometimes worry what people will think if she tells them what she believes in. This doesn't mean she won't talk, or that she feels ashamed. It merely means she is sensitive to what others think, regarding her beliefs.

Natalie is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Natalie will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Natalie an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Natalie is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Natalie is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially.  According to the data input, Natalie doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Natalie can be defiant. She sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn't like it the way she is doing it, then they can just "go to hell!" This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which she thinks are infringing upon her freedom of action.

According to the inputted data, Natalie has a stinger shape inside the oval of her a, d, or c. This might be hard to visualize, but if this little hooklike shape is present, then Natalie has an unresolved "issue" with strong members of the opposite gender. An occasional appearance of this stroke could indicate a simple "loves a mental challenge" which can manifest in playful linguistic conversations and being attracted to a lover who isn't always available. However, if the stroke is severe, this means the individual has unresolved anger at the oppostive gender - which usually started with the person's childhood relationship with the opposite gender parent (Mom or Dad). If the writer is a woman she will be attracted to strong challenging men. If the writer is a man, he will find the woman who is "hard to get" the most attractive. In a nutshell, people with stingers in their writing tend to have challenges in their romantic relationships. For more information about this "stinger" trait, visit this webpage: http://www.myhandwriting.com/analyze/hlltrt5.html. Remember, it is only negative if the traits occurs often and is quite pronounced. An occasional stinger can be no problem.

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[21 Feb 2006|04:03pm]
[ mood | impressed ]

I called into work today. Well, Mikey did it for me. We stayed up until 3:30 am and then when i did wake up this morning, i had a horrible headache. Maybe it was from my conversation with Kris. You never know.

Ashley broke up with Jim. That is so freakin cool. I will do anything i can to help a cool chick get away from a deadbeat boyfriend. That's right,


Fence straddlers piss me off. It's like, okay, i'm only going to say what i think you want to hear so i can be totally indifferent and no one will be mad at me.


It's kinda fun, cause I'm really not caught up in any of the bullshit surrounding the "group breakup" so i can totally be there for Ashley and not have to deal with all of the drama, but still gain a really kick ass girlfriend out of it. ROCK ON!

I really hate that whole "big group" friendship strategy. Quality is always better than quantity, especially if you have no idea who you can trust in you "group friendship".

Ok, gotta go to Winn-Dixie. We need chicken for dinner tonight.

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